A Year of Reflections – From Nihilism to Optimism :)


As i sit down to write this post, i have a smile on my face, love in my heart and peace in my mind. Last year exactly this time, there was a deep sense of anguish and negativity around. There was stagnation and torpor. There was the feeling of falling down in a deep abyss where one gets lost. Took me a while to figure out what went wrong where ? Took me a while to find myself. But when i did , i did it with a boom. Now after an year i’m back in the game – More powerful, more strong, more determined , more ambitious and more successful.

The greatest lesson learnt in the previous year and something that will stay with me for my life is – Never ever give your precious access to negative people. For if they do, they destroy your essential self. They destroy you. A few months ago , i had a sense of vengeance for some people who were selfish and ungrateful. I thought of them as obstacles – obstacles in the path of my personal growth. I thought of them as ‘energy vampires’ who were trying to take away my chi (positive energy) and break into my ‘aura’. A year later, i have no sense of revenge or hate or even the remotest ill feeling for those people. I exonerated them. I purged them. I forgave them. I ‘let it go.’

Forgiveness is indeed a virtue. It helps to move on. It really does. The moment you let go of people or situations , your journey to self growth begins. A journey of transformation. A journey of optimism. A journey of happiness. In that journey , you discover yourself as a human being. You literally re-invent yourself. You don’t even remember what ills people caused you because you’re busy finding your inner ‘self’. The ‘self’ that got lost. When you find it, there is just no looking back. Life becomes cheerful. Flowers become bright again. The sky is blue. The trees are green. Music is sweet. Food is delectable. Life is beautiful and ‘you’ become ‘you’ πŸ™‚

For each of you out there who have been hurt by people or situations, hang in there. It’ll definitely get better. The people who hurt you may or may not revive eventually but you will. I can vouch for it. I am dedicating this post to every single individual who hit rock bottom and bounced back sky high. You’re the kind of people the world looks up to. You’re winners. Cheers to that πŸ™‚

Lastly, i want to thank some outstanding people who met me along the way and helped me discover myself. I owe them the deepest sense of gratitude for believing in me and helping me reach where i am today. You people taught me that, “Akriti Mattu can make a come back on her own.” Β I totally did .

THANK you Β Divya SarjoltaΒ for being there every damn time and never ever giving up on me.(Don’t think i need to say more, i just dedicated an entire post to you recently :D) THANK you Ashish Rajta for making me your own in every single way and for respecting me for who i am; You and i have to travel an entire journey together πŸ™‚ THANK you Ashish Ranjan for all the time and the inspirational talks and for making me realize that the vision for the future is damn important ;the present moment shall pass. You didn’t let be weak for even a day πŸ™‚ Β Finally , THANK you Prateek Purohit for investing so much time on all the fun chats ( i really really needed them) and keeping that faith alive in me πŸ™‚

I owe you all my happiness and my success. I owe you my transformation from nihilism to optimism, from negativity to positivity, finally from India to United States.

Much love


P.S: Shared the following quote on exactly this date last year. Came out to be true πŸ™‚

Akriti Mattu


  1. Well, someone who has gone through such phase himself can understand what you have achieved.It’s easy to cheer someone up but bloody difficult to overcome such negativity and that too with such flying colours.More than anyone else,it’s a reflection of your tough character and immense mental strength & skills.More power to you.
    P.S. you are turning out to be an absolute inspiration.:)

  2. Fantastic excellent and congratulations. Life is just like standing in front of a mirror you smile at it will make you smile in return but the moment you frown it will give you an ugly look in return. Akriti all the best to you for the future and as I always say it to everyone “never be the slave of your destiny always make your destiny your slave”

  3. An Apology to start with, for being late to comment. The Internet ban in Ahmedabad and my own schedule owes a lot for this delay.

    Well Mattu, it was pleasure being with your side over the period of time and am all glad I could inspire you. I mean, it takes a hell Lotta oomph to inspire an already inspired soul.
    Will tell you to remember the core of our talks forever, for they have helped me always and will remain benevolent for you too.

    PS- I can use your case for starting my own startup, focused at inspiring people. What say πŸ˜œπŸ˜œπŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒ

    • Hey no apologies required πŸ™‚ The words here are really sweet and so meaningful. As for the startup, sure πŸ˜€

  4. Great Post -here is what my mother to add for you…

    Do you ever find yourself amazed by co-incidence? How several things can come together all at once, in a way that so profoundly resonates, it seems like it must mean something more, that it can’t be just a co-incidence? And have you felt, at times, like this happens so frequently that co-incidence no longer seems like an adequate explanation; that perhaps, it indicates fate?

    Can Nihilists ever stay upbeat and optimistic towards life? Nihilism is the rejection of the notion that life has any intrinsic or innate meaning or reason.

    It has been over a century now since Nietzsche explored nihilism and its implications for civilization. As he predicted, nihilism’s impact on the culture and values of the 20th century has been pervasive, its apocalyptic tenor spawning a mood of gloom and a good deal of anxiety, anger, and terror. Interestingly, Nietzsche himself, a radical skeptic preoccupied with language, knowledge, and truth, anticipated many of the themes of postmodernity. It’s helpful to note, then, that he believed we could–at a terrible price–eventually work through nihilism.

  5. It will get better.
    I have no idea how many times i have said that line to myself and others and now i have proof that it indeed does get better.
    Really happy for you Akriti.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *